So, lately I’ve been thinking about maybe sharing some of the kinky stuff I’ve made…? I’ve mostly been learning game programming this year, so the small amount of horny art I do just-for-me constitutes a larger-than-usual percentage of what I’ve made over the year. Oops.
I guess sharing it gets a lil complicated though, for a number of reasons!! Firstly, shame. we’re not really open about kink stuff with anyone, irl or online, so it all feels intensely personal and idk how safe we feel putting it on the internet for anyone to see.
Secondly, like 90% of it is doing double-duty as journalling, which only makes it even more personal and hard to share.
Thirdly, it’s just nice sometimes, to make stuff that is 100% for our eyes only. And posting any of it anywhere will change that dynamic.
Lastly, I’m pretty sure I’m aroace, so the art in question is… a little hard to categorise? Like, it’s not really SFW. But it’s also not exactly what you’d expect from something labelled NSFW, either? I feel like the line between what’s kinky/non-kinky could get a little blurry…
But, I guess the reason I’m contemplating sharing it is that it makes us really happy. Like I always feel so warm and fuzzy inside when I’m drawing/writing it, and when looking back at it too. Shame aside, I do really like some of the stuff I’ve made, to the point where it’s some of my favourite work to come out of this year. So it feels a little sad in some ways to not be able to share it.
Also, I kind of want this website to be as comprehensive as possible, and… I guess it’s kind of incomplete without the kink stuff here? I don’t know. I don’t know!! It’s become an important part of our creative practice.
I saw a post on tumblr the other day, along the lines of:
the author’s open fetish, which complements the themes of their work
And I don’t know. You probably don’t want to see my weird kink stuff, but being more open about it sounds kinda nice. Sorry.
A lot of the more journally stuff feels, um. 100% off-limits. But I think we’re about to hit a new phase with the kink stuff that’s less journally? Or at least a little more varied. Stuff we’d potentially be more comfortable sharing.
The question is, will you ever actually see any of it? xD
I’m going to stop digging myself a hole now. Even if we don’t make a kink corner for the site in the end, I feel like writing about it like this has helped me feel a bit less ashamed of it?